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Selective Services Dec. 16th, 2006 @ 10:05 pm
Honestly, Selective services can suck my non-existent cock.

Ever since discovering the fact that all men have to send that form in upon turning eighteen I have been absolutely livid.
At first I tried to ignore the feelings that came up with seeing it, telling myself to save it for when Ben had to deal with it.
Well that time has come. My brother has to sign that form, or else he risks five years in jail or a $250,000 fine.
I was walking through the post office last week and there were signs all over for it, with rather tacky and manipulative lines along the lines of "Are you a real man? Then prove it by sending in this form..ITS THE LAW"
My biggest gripe with this law has little to do with the fact that I am against this thing that makes your name accessible should there ever be a draft; I am most frustrated that I was not required to sign such a form.
I find that to be the single most disgusting and unfair fact about this selective services form. The young men around me could face fines and prison for not signing it, yet I, along with all other young women in the U.S., have a choice in this matter.
I intend to find a way to get my brother out of signing this rubbish form. But if I cannot do that, I am contemplating filling my own form out and sending that in. Why should only the men I love face a possible draft? It seems only fair that all women send one in too.
That said, I have second thoughts about even that. Is this small statement going to result in me facing a position that I do not want to be in sometime in the future, when it may be more beneficial for me and those around me not to have my name on such a list?
I guess that is for me to figure out.

Other news... The holidays are approaching quickly. Ben and I are having a Winter Solstice Celebration (Shab e'yaldo) this Friday, we've invited a small group to come and enjoy the dancing, music, food and warmth with us.
I've all but decided that I would like to attend Hampshire next fall. I can simply use the next nine months to work and perhaps take some classes that may transfer and work towards my major. The two other schools that accepted me were Suffolk University and the University of Vermont. Both accepted me for this spring, and Suffolk even transferred 65 credits over, but I feel that Hampshire is the school that is best for what I want to do.
I submitted that back cover text for my book today, they already have the cover image picked out. Now I just need to keep focusing on the context of the book, and working through it without getting sidetracked.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: Number One Crush -- Garbage Asking Too Much -- Ani Difranco

Letter! Dec. 6th, 2006 @ 09:14 pm
I got my first acceptance letter today.
Hampshire College accepted me as a Transfer for the Fall 2007 semester.
Finally. I wonder if the other schools will take me, they are for Spring 2007.
I don't need my GED. I don't. I feel incredibly relieved and somewhat anxious about the next few responses.
I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
Current Location: Usual -- Basement
Current Mood: relievedrelieved

On a side note. Dec. 5th, 2006 @ 11:45 pm
Well, lets see...
This weekend was busy, to say the least. Michael was over from friday until monday. We finally made a visit to Ally's together, I always tell her that we'll both visit one day when he comes down to visit, but I never make the call.
Aky, Ben, my mother, and Sharo all have Pneumonia. It is bizarre that it hit everyone like this, it took four doctor's visits for them to notice that Aky had it. The final time my mom took her in, because Aky was taking painful tiny breaths, they took an x-ray and then declared that she had to be briefly hospitalized because her entire left lung was full. My poor Aky had to be given the antibiotic through an IV.
She's finally walking around the house again, I'd missed seeing her be lively. She'd been in bed for two weeks.
But yes...I'll get my school decisions back in the next few weeks. I hope that at least one of the schools accepted me. I may just have to give in and take the damn GED, even though I find it pointless. I have an Associate's Degree, *WHY* do I need to show proof of high school education?
I hate not being in school right now. I feel like my life has been pointlessly put on pause and that whatever force is supposed to restart it is either on vacation or broken beyond repair.
Where am I going to live in spring? Will I be in a dorm? Am I going to stay living there for the next 2-3 years, or will I come home when over breaks and the end of the semester? Either way, I'd rather know sooner then later. I like having all the information in my hands.
On a side note, I've begun reading the bible. For a number of different reasons really, first off the two years I got of Catholic school taught me little except to fear nuns and to color within the lines of the Jesus drawing. Another reason, the little I do know about it tends to make me hate it, and I would like to know precisely what it is I do not like.
I am very impressed by religion. I am very impressed that so many people have come to believe the things written and told in specific documents about how things should be. There are a number of things that I understand but don't actually see the reasons for, Human beings have needed religion so that they have a reason to keep going, so that they can use it as the answer to the mostly unanswerable questions. Also, I feel that it has been a crutch, you hand your responsibility over to it, and you feel better, often when you don't deserve to.
Current Location: Basement -- Home
Current Mood: thoughtfulInterested
Current Music: You Wanted More -- Tonic

Dec. 1st, 2006 @ 01:27 pm

Anyone, everyone
read Baghdad Burning. Either in book form or try the actual blog: http://riverbendblog.blogspot.com/

Written and regularly updated by a 26 year old Iraqi woman. There's no excuse not to at least read it.

To do. Dec. 1st, 2006 @ 01:19 pm
I have yet to send the photographs. The deadline was yesterday, but the majority of them were too large to email. I am overnighting them to the publishing company. They haven't emailed back to let me know if that is going to be a huge problem.
The new cousins went to HIAS to figure out their paperwork, social security numbers, and so on...They'll be there all day.
So for today I have to routinely check on Aky and Ben, bringing them juice, water, cold towels for the forheads and that type of thing. I have to clean the last few bits of my room, and then I need to vacuum this dusty dusty basement.
I've got two hours to finish all this up.
Then Mike will be here.
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: busybusy
Current Music: Crucify -- Tori Amos
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» Scanning...
First day of writing since...not really sure when. It has been months, perhaps a year? Not sure. I forgot to check when. I was too busy trying to remember my password, had to retrieve it twice.
Currently I am scanning photographs for the book, the cover photo is due today, and I had scanning my choice image in the wrong size. So it has been plenty of rescanning today.
I actually better hurry up and send them all, I hope they choose my favorite one.

I met two of my cousins for the first time today. They flew in last night, they had been in Austria for five months, awaiting approval to enter the US. They're from Iran, like the rest of my family. They are fifteen and seventeen years old, names are: Sevan and Sevanna. Communicating with them is getting easier, but can be quite a challenge. They don't speak english and I don't speak farsi, so Assyrian is our only choice. And while I speak the language rather well, there are many words that I've forgotten.
This has been a very good month.
» Almost done....So close..
I had my first of my four finals today...the others are on monday and friday of next week. I am finally graduating from the Community college, today was my final day of paperwork and all that crappy crap. I'm really relieved to be done with it. I had a good day, and I feel really good about all of the classes I had this semester and about the grades I'm getting.
1. Plan Road Trip
2. Get Central all figured out
3. Get that job

All perfectly attainable goals. I just need to put the time into them.
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School mostly ends this week, I've got two days of exams next week, but that's it. The days are pretty crappy though, Monday and Friday...Either way I'll be done so very soon.
I only went to one class last week, I was sick with a flu/ear thing...Its still hanging around which is really starting to get to me. I cannot hear a thing from my left ear, this is so disorienting(spelling?).
I guess today should be the day I tackle the mess of my room, I don't think I'll ever get healthy living in this clutter.
» life's simple pleasures?
Tagged by Emily (sorry it took my so long to do this)

"Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used."

1. Knowing what people think of me, especially the surprising things I'd never guess about myself
2. Being physically close with people I just met
3. People bursting into Laughter
4. Observing People
5. The last Five Minutes of Anything...Class, work, cartrip

Name 5 people you'd like to see do this:

It doesn't really matter...Whoever reads it?
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Two papers to write, due when school starts up again. Still trying to figure out a relevant thesis for the shorter of the two.
I'm discovering new things about myself. Not morals really, but my solid opinions on different things. My acheivement this weekend was to stop downplaying the sides of myself that I feel guilty or weird about. Many things are a part of who I am, and I can't change that.
That's all.
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